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Cocoon.

She was a compact two wheel drive in the modest shade of silver.
Previous owner from western Japan left a cigarette burn on the driver’s seat.
Sales man at the lot remarked on my face, said I look rusted like the car’s old engine.
Purchase was made in autumn 2011, the year everything felt like one big defeat.

Thought nothing good would come from this, turned out couldn’t be further from the truth.
Soon there were nights parked on a sand dune, curled up to hear the endless loop of waves.
We’d ride up the hills, into the storm and rest under the trees, wrapped in their unquestionable resiliency.
Most importantly though, she was a shelter with changing sceneries, encased my shedding, the morphing, the reaching for Creativity.

My humble, sturdy sidekick fell silent in the late February 2020.
“Cocoon spat me out” I said, I felt like a cicada freshly out of his, with soft pale green wings that harden overnight.
100 months in my modest silver cocoon, had brought me to where I always dreamt I’d visit.
We took one long ride together, thousands sunsets enclosed us along the way.

Grainy monochrome photograph of a wave.
Grainy monochrome photograph of a journal, hand and rain patterns.
Grainy monochrome photograph of a windshield, sky and a driver.
Grainy monochrome photograph of a windshield, rain and a tree.
Grainy monochrome photograph of an abstract drawing, shadow, light.
Grainy monochrome photograph of Ocean in moonlight.
Grainy monochrome photograph of gardenia flowers.
Grainy monochrome photograph of a drawing and a sewing mannequin.
Grainy monochrome photograph of rain on a windshield.
Grainy monochrome photograph of swans and water surface.
Grainy monochrome photograph of a gardenia bouquet in studio.
Grainy monochrome self portrait on the road.
Grainy monochrome photograph of art work in progress.
Grainy monochrome self portrait on the road.
Grainy monochrome photograph of artist studio.
Grainy monochrome photograph of a parked car at dusk.

This post is dedicated, an ode to my sidekick, we had parted our ways in early April.
Photos are mostly taken with iPhone, all edited using vsco B5 filter.
All artworks are from the series “Spider Lily Red” (2012 – ).
The second selfie: “one eye” is a happenstance, I am so very much a ‘commoner’.
The sales man did not receive my vendetta; figured him being him would be the punishment enough ;)

Creative Process, September 2018.


Creative Process, September 2018 - Work in Progress.
Creative Process, September 2018 - Lily Geometry.

Creative Process, September 2018 - Pencil Drawing.
Creative Process, September 2018 - Pattern Tracing.

Creative Process, September 2018 - Lily Jizou.
Creative Process, September 2018 - Butterfly Lilies.

The project: Spider Lily Red.
In progress is the second of the two piece series called “Flare”.
Images are from this past September, captured moments during the precious three weeks I get to spend every autumn with my favorite lilies, my muse, taking in as much, their familier red to last me for a year.
The photos are in sleepy smoky monochrome, because I am saving up the stored red so as to pour it all into the second piece I will be painting in the coming months.

Thank you for your visit, and Happy Holidays!!

Monochrome Diary, June 2018.


A leaf, on sand grains, lit with morning light.
A bayleaf on woodgrain, a nail, a fabric scrap.

A honeysuckle flower, macro, lit by the light through a clear gl
Agapanthus Lily, a bud, macro.

A wing, feathers, acid dye on silk, detail, folded.
An abstract lily petal, acid dye on silk, covered in studio, det

Coffee with a crab, a journal, the Sea.
A dyed wing on silk, folded, with a canine friend.

“No amount of time will erase the memory of a great dog.” – Internet Meme

Images: Late May to early June, 2018. 4th from top is of an agapanthus bud. 5 and 6 are details from Wing Dress (Velocity) and Spider Lily Red (Flare 1), respectively.